Farewell to all from 'GP & Human' in this personal form. Thank you all so much for your loyal support as you followed my journey; it meant more than I can express.
I have simply appropriately emotionally responded to life challenges!
I have spent a lifetime trying to be the best person I can be. Yet it's never enough. And, despite best intentions, I keep messing up. I am no good as a mother, wife or doctor. I'm fed up of the futility of trying so hard for nothing. I just want it all to go away. Curl up and hide. Escape. Switch off.
So, I can feel hints of what I struggled with before and there is a fear of falling back to that to a degree although I am sure it would never get back to that extreme. But pretty much everything is, and will remain, better than before September.
'The Thursday Plan' has worked brilliantly. A perfect mix of achieving necessary tasks and having some time being 'me.'
I get really tired. I wonder why I get so tired.
But maybe being 'tired all the time' isn't such a surprise after all!
I don't feel ready. But it has be done. And all will be well. One step at a time.
The ring will represent happiness and motivation coming from an experience of depression and apathy and serve as a reminder of 'In every negative experience, there is a positive and something to learn.'
Happy New Year everyone!
Redefining my 'normal,' but how do I do that?
A glitch. Over-sensitivity. Needing a new boost.